behind but still fighting

Molly Piper wrote a post about fighting to stay in the word for (in)Courage entitled "The Hardest Thing to Do Is Open Your Bible." It was so encouraging to me. I've been feeling really guilty about the fact that I'm way behind in the Bible reading plan that I started at the beginning of the year. I stalled out in October after Buddy was born and have been limping along ever since. I've made it 3x further this year than any other year I attempted it, but can't seem to celebrate that victory. I keep focusing on the failure. That seems to be a recurring theme in my life these days. Life with two children under two is a lot of small victories in a day and it's time for me to start embracing them instead of looking at all the ways I fail in a day. And while I'm at it, perhaps it time to redefine success and failure as a whole. So anyway, I'm still fighting. Even if some days (okay, most days) are reading for 10 minutes so I can literally check the box, it's still fighting. I'm not okay with it being like this forever but I wholeheartedly agree with Molly's words, "God sees our individual situations. He knows. And if opening the Bible is a hard thing in this season of life (for whatever reason), He is pleased with our doing the hard thing."